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christella alcabasa
13 September 2010 @ 05:52 pm
There is a great deal of difference between an eager man who wants to read a book and a tired man who wants a book to read. ~G.K. Chesterton

I will write back soon. I just need a little more time to refresh myself. I've been through a lot since I last wrote here. And I am much more delighted to tell ya'll about it :) soon.

I have a lot to share :)

Have a nice day. <3
Current Mood: touchedtouched
Current Music: Tie Me Down.
christella alcabasa
14 June 2010 @ 12:43 pm
Why would God let us meet if there's no way we could be together? --Maggi Rice

And so after a month, I am so back. Anyway, if you wanna know how I'm doing. Well, I made the wrong decision again and got fooled by so many people. I NEVER GET THINGS RIGHT. I thought I was already happy. I regret my whole summer. I cried my eyes out twice this summer . One time, I called my friend and just cried the hell out, I couldn't damn talk, I just can't say what I wanna say. That's how bad I felt. 

I feel so depressed about everything that's happened but my mind set is just that God can't give me a problem I can't handle. I pray everyday so I could feel better even just a little damn bit. I am stepping into college with a broken heart. I hope I'll be ok.

School starts tomorrow and I have no idea how they do it in college. I was hoping I could have my braces removed before college but.. Uggh. This has been stuck in my teeth for a year already and I badly want to take it off.

And also, I am sick today. I had fever the other day and right now I am 'suffering' cough and colds and an ugly voice.. it's because of the colds. How the hell can I introduce myself in front of class tomorrow without sounding like a sick freak?! I'm also in need of sleep. I can't sleep properly lately because of all the horror movies I've watched with my cousins. Even in taking a bath, I get scared.

I am so unlucky.

Current Mood: draineddrained
Current Music: Breathe slow.
christella alcabasa
03 April 2010 @ 12:40 pm
Nothing in the world is ever completely wrong. Even a stopped clock is right twice a day. - Paulo Coelho 

Hi. Me again. 

I haven't stayed at home for a single day since Summer 2010 started.
Been quite busy.

Life is good. Summer's great. I love times like these. I have money (graduation gift), time and freedom. No more stress.

Anyway,  I am now an official high school graduate and I am soo prepared for college. Well, I think I am. I got my NCAE result and it was written there that I am INVESTIGATIVE (based on how I answered the test and how my results were). and I definitely liked it knowing that Im gonna be taking Psychology.


Later, imma be hanging out with my girls (Yabeez) at the afternoon then at the evening with Gie, Marane and some people ;) I hung out with them last night and darn the curfew in our subdivision wasss scary.

Yeah it's nice to have lots of friends. I got more people to love.

I feel so alive.
Current Mood: determineddetermined
Current Music: Sexy Love.
christella alcabasa
Can't you see? Every step I have taken, since I was that child on the bridge, has been to bring myself closer to you. - Memoirs of a Geisha

It's freakin 6am and I am up this early without any reason. I woke up in the middle of my sleep and now I can't go back. I don't know why but, this sh*t always happens to me. Anyway since I just can't fall back to sleep, I went online and cooked myself some noodles to heat up my stomach. It was also weird that I had no text messages when I usually get A LOT cos my friends are really all-nighters and they text until sunrise.


Yesterday was the last day of high school and was the general rehearsal of the graduation practice. I'm happy cos I can sleeep now. No more school! I never liked that school policy where you have to come to school so early everyday. Waking up was never easy. I'm not sad, I know I'll still see the people I want to see. My friends, we'll still hang out. But okay I admit, I AM a bit sad. Just a bit. Graduation's on Friday and yes I am soooo gonna be on college on the next 3 months. Even though I still look like some second year HS dude. Haha. Summer 2010, I will make everyday a good day. 

Do you think I am really okkay right now? I got so many questions about the world. Why is there this guy who comes to your life that no matter what happens, you'll think he'll always be the best for you? Even though you've already had him and broke up and got hurt and started again, you'll still think he's the best for you. That no matter how long it has been, you will still wonder with those what ifs about him. That same person is also the person you never get tired of. You just want that person all to yourself but you know how life is, that person doesn't want you anymore that way you still want him. O M G..
Did I just type all that.
WHY? I mean, he's the one I can never resist even after years already, even though he treats me like sh*t I know i'll still want to talk to him.

HOW DOES THIS HAPPEN? you hate what he did to you so much but you just can't let everything go. I guess this is what they say na your brain doesn't want it anymore it's just that your heart. It's.. ugghh. What kind of emotions are these. Sometimes.. I just hate it.

What the hell am I saying again. But I hope you have asked yourself that same question, and you can tell me how you solved it.

K. Stop thinking now.

I have already found love in someone else :) (WEH????)

I am such a blabber.

Current Mood: exhaustedi just wrote my heart out
Current Music: Bedrock.
christella alcabasa
14 March 2010 @ 07:34 pm
A wise girl kisses but doesn’t love, listens but doesn’t believe, and leaves before she is left. — Marilyn Monroe

Friday; the last day of our final exam. Felt good to know that that was my last exam as a high school student. Best exam ever, I went to school and answered the tests without even opening a book, without reviewing, without scanning. I even had to fix my stuff at the morning before going to school. I was so confident. After the exams, we had like an hour left vacant.
So our adviser decided to give us a message one by one. 

My adviser told me a lot of negative stuff at first, which made me feel a little embrassed. I was maarte, maingay, but my grades are ok, of course. And then she mentioned that when she read the autobiography i made, she told me she knows I love writing. She left me a message. She said she thinks I couldn't express myself in person. She said she kinda knows how it feels to express feelings in writing. She told me to say the same (whatever that means), keep on writing, do what I love, and blah blah blah. I was kinda teary eyed. That was just sweet, for me. 

After school, I slept the whole afternoon. Then went out at night. Got involved in a problem I am not supposed to be a part of that I am strictly not allowed to tell. Got home safe. Almost cried. Prayed. Felt good. Then slept.

Saturday; went to Tiendesitas to watch my brother's band/gig thing, the event was named College Collision 3. They were all so good. Everyone in that College Collision thingy were rich kids from Ateneo and UP and I was like.. Okayy. I am surrounded by college dudes, how do I act.

At the car til home I texted my 4 friends who got involved with the problem too that happened last Friday night, I could break down any moment cos I was so worried disappointed scared and I haven't eaten anything that night. Friends and I were all mad and regretful and threw hurtful text messages back and forth. We aren't in a fight ha, sadyang malaki talaga yung problema and we do not know how to recover. I prayed hard that night. Mapapahamak kami lahat..

Sunday; Woke up at 5am all dizzy and starving to death. I ate noodles. It helped a bit. Then at around 7am I slept again, then I had a nightmare. I had a dream about my dad and I in our car then something hit us then boom. The next thing I remember, I was drowning. Worst dream ever. Alam mo un, paputol putol ung sleep ko, tapos ung feeling, ang bigat na ang sakit. And I don't even want to think about it. I woke up again at around 8 to get ready for church, with my faith and hopes high that we can solve this problem. I also realized that yeah, I need some guidance in my life right now. I want to learn how to balance my really sad life. 

Afternoon after church, my Twin and I went to Mt Zion Cemetery. Two people we know passed away  in the La Union bus accident, so yeah, condolences. I was with Twin and some other outside friends.

Then that's how my weekend came to be. 

This is my longest post ever. I've never been this detailed.

So yeah, bye.

Current Mood: guiltyhardships
Current Music: The Only Exception