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24 March 2010 @ 06:55 am
Even though you've already had him and broke up and got hurt and started again..  
Can't you see? Every step I have taken, since I was that child on the bridge, has been to bring myself closer to you. - Memoirs of a Geisha

It's freakin 6am and I am up this early without any reason. I woke up in the middle of my sleep and now I can't go back. I don't know why but, this sh*t always happens to me. Anyway since I just can't fall back to sleep, I went online and cooked myself some noodles to heat up my stomach. It was also weird that I had no text messages when I usually get A LOT cos my friends are really all-nighters and they text until sunrise.

Hmm.

Yesterday was the last day of high school and was the general rehearsal of the graduation practice. I'm happy cos I can sleeep now. No more school! I never liked that school policy where you have to come to school so early everyday. Waking up was never easy. I'm not sad, I know I'll still see the people I want to see. My friends, we'll still hang out. But okay I admit, I AM a bit sad. Just a bit. Graduation's on Friday and yes I am soooo gonna be on college on the next 3 months. Even though I still look like some second year HS dude. Haha. Summer 2010, I will make everyday a good day. 


Do you think I am really okkay right now? I got so many questions about the world. Why is there this guy who comes to your life that no matter what happens, you'll think he'll always be the best for you? Even though you've already had him and broke up and got hurt and started again, you'll still think he's the best for you. That no matter how long it has been, you will still wonder with those what ifs about him. That same person is also the person you never get tired of. You just want that person all to yourself but you know how life is, that person doesn't want you anymore that way you still want him. O M G..
Did I just type all that.
 
WHY? I mean, he's the one I can never resist even after years already, even though he treats me like sh*t I know i'll still want to talk to him.

HOW DOES THIS HAPPEN? you hate what he did to you so much but you just can't let everything go. I guess this is what they say na your brain doesn't want it anymore it's just that your heart. It's.. ugghh. What kind of emotions are these. Sometimes.. I just hate it.

What the hell am I saying again. But I hope you have asked yourself that same question, and you can tell me how you solved it.

K. Stop thinking now.

I have already found love in someone else :) (WEH????)


I am such a blabber.

Bye.
 
 
Current Mood: exhaustedi just wrote my heart out
Current Music: Bedrock.
 
 
 
(Anonymous) on March 25th, 2010 04:51 am (UTC)
U are definitely inlove wid everithn you just said :-)
christella alcabasabubbleberrycake on April 3rd, 2010 05:15 am (UTC)
Really? U think?
sweet_avery on March 26th, 2010 12:51 am (UTC)
Good luck with college! :)
I think it's okay, I think it's normal to be falling for the same guy over again. I had. Yeah, yeah. I know, I'm crazier than you but...sometimes, it just happens. We make choices. You just can't get him out of your mind, I know, right? :))
christella alcabasabubbleberrycake on April 3rd, 2010 05:15 am (UTC)
TOTALLLYYYYY.


Haha.

Thanks.<3
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christella alcabasabubbleberrycake on April 3rd, 2010 05:16 am (UTC)
THanku^^
(Anonymous) on March 29th, 2010 03:19 am (UTC)
haaayyyy! hirap talaga ma in love! that's life...
christella alcabasabubbleberrycake on April 3rd, 2010 05:16 am (UTC)
=)